Now Feel Away the Constrictin

N then it hit me 
my chest - actually my lungs
start constrictin n constrictin 
while im sittin wonderin
what is this thing...
this fear
when i was really doing nothin
but on the net surfin n readin
sittin in my office preparin n writin
looking at somethin that keeps 
me motivated to b better. 


So this constrictin...
which by the way is much
less then the beginnin
yet still lingerin. 
Keeps me ponderin 
about this typing
which is flowin
like water n wind
It's so dam healin 
so im countin my
BLESSINGS cuz i talked
with my FATHER
who is aging 
with dignity and distinction


Whoa!...the contrictin
is lessinin its holdin 
over my lungs
Yet still affectin the breathin


When i get in...in 
to the real of this anxiety
that keeps me
searchin for the key
to release n free
emotion n spirit neg energy
so im deep inhalin into the pain                        
n the constictin is loosenin again 
to pure focus of intense believin, 
expanding, strechin, holding, 
testin, n pushin.


With desire of the 1 ness of All. 


The Knowing of the Now.
Time still n stopped 
Bein in the Now.


The Now 
that stops the pushin'
from the one cause of this constrictin'
too much Past n Future Thinkin.